Ramblings

17 November 2015 - 13h37

I believe it's become quite apparent that I'm incredibly terrible at updating this site with what I had originally intended to share. What I had hoped would be a frequently updated blog has now become a yearly or bi-annual occasion. I also feel that I begin most blog posts similarly to this one. Haha

Bare with me.

This year has been an interesting and (yes) frustrating year to say the least. There has been an immense amount of sifting through what serves me whilst accommodating others, and what serves others, but definitely does not benefit me. I am slowly (very slowly) learning to place myself first in certain situations and believe me it has been a tumultuous journey.
Where is the line? It's like a world without borders and you have to create your own toll gate.
When do I say "yes" and when should the answer without a doubt be "no"?
I reply with an enthusiastic "yes!" more often than responding with a resounding "no".
Saying "YES!" is lovely, but it becomes a problem when you begin to let others down, because you are unable to commit to your own excitement. Yes, becomes an issue when you constantly give of yourself to others and never give back to yourself, because you feel as though you have nothing left to give.
Saying yes, also means learning how to receive "yes" instead of assuming that you are the only individual who needs to be a "YeS!?" for everything.
I'm beginning to learn and accept that I would prefer to say "no" and stay true to my word as opposed to responding with the expected response and fail to be impeccable with my word.
It now occurs far too regularly.
It's interesting, because I always rant on about how I'm not fond of others failing to remain true to their word and yet I've become that very person.
I despise myself each time I have to break my commitment to a plan, purely because I lack the energy to see it through.
There is no harm in "rejecting" an idea, a plan or a decision if it does not benefit you too. Perhaps you'll momentarily upset another, but it's temporary and you'll be viewed as reliable as opposed to the one whom bails on every ones plans.
We need to present for ourselves too. We need to provide as much space and energy for ourselves as we do for other beings, for how can we truly be present for others if we are not focusing our love and healing upon our own being?
Is it worthwhile eventually feeling completely run down and unwell for months on end, purely because we are attempting to satisfy others? Hmmm, me thinks not. Care and love needs to be provided for oneself first and foremost, and the energy that remains may be freely shared to others in ones own time.
I need to learn t be more selfish more often, so I can be unconditionally selfless.
Self love = selfless love.
I preach that sentiment often, but I'm rather terrible at actually applying my own beliefs.
It's never too late to begin loving yourself, even if it's only incredibly slowly to begin with.
Whether it be slowly applying a daily routine, or changing your eating habits, planting your first vegetable seed, attending a course you have always longed to experience, creating a weekend journey, lazing beneath Grandfather Sun or just saying "no"...then do it!
No one else is holding you back from living to your fullest potential except you.
Accept yourself for who you are and where you are within your life, because you are perfect.
You are perfect, because you are exactly whom you are meant to be within this very moment and if you wish to change something within yourself, then do so, but be kind to yourself.
Stop being fearful of asking for help when you truly need it, if you need guidance along your journey then ask a being you revere and trust (it could very well be your mama or gran) or read an inspiring book or even venture through to a siStar or brother who enjoys reading your cards or natal chart.
Allow yourself to experience whatever creates the most galactic amount of happiness and joy within your heart and soul.
Stop being afraid of change! The first steps are usually difficult or exasperating, but it also entirely depends on our perspective. Create and Feel the magick within daily situations; meander via a different route to your home, speak to people upon the street, whisper into the wind, dance in your vehicle, swim amongst Mama Ocean nude, sing to the Tree beings, experience bare back horse riding, make sauerkraut (it's incredibly easy), place blossoms in your hair...
Drink in Grandmother Moon and savour her wisdom.
Just be and believe in the beauty of the unknown as opposed to fearing it. Breathe...and begin again.
These simple experiences of "ordinary" magick are what heal us after all.
Loving ourselves is a daily practice, so start with embracing yourself, smiling and wiggling to your desired sound rhythm.
Tra la, la la, la... It's far less complicated than we make it out to be.

I honour you and your journey beautiful being that creates numerous mistakes and is sometimes blinded by your own sillyness. Even me, I do likewise. We are human. It's perfectly alright.

As above, so below.
As within, so without.

Blessings and an infinitum of love fellow Earth creatures ~,'*

Buzzing friend :)